“When she is working onstage, she has more power than any woman I've ever seen,” says Paltrow. “She would never say it and has never said it, but I feel she knows with every fiber of her being that she is the best in the world at her job.”
There's still an obsessiveness about detail in Beyoncé's artistic life. In her studio are elaborate “vision boards” to stimulate her creative process—photographs, writings, reminders of past achievements. There's the cover of her 2003 album Dangerously in Love. There are photos of her Grammy performances with Prince and Tina Turner. Song concepts. Potential titles. “There's so much stuff up there,” she says. “It kind of feels right now like A Beautiful Mind.”
Beyoncé says her new music “is a lot more sensual . . . empowering.” It celebrates being a wife and a mother, reflecting the obvious changes in her life. “Right now, after giving birth, I really understand the power of my body,” she says. “I just feel my body means something completely different. I feel a lot more confident about it. Even being heavier, thinner, whatever. I feel a lot more like a woman. More feminine, more sensual. And no shame.”
She jokes that next time she might make a country album. Maybe a jazz album. She talks about wanting more children. “When I was younger, there were moments where I said, ‘I'm not going to have children,’ ” Beyoncé says. “And then moments when I wanted four. And now I definitely want another, but I don't know when.”
What will happen will happen, she says. But there's a sense that Beyoncé won't let her life get relentless, that she will pull back now and again, not immerse herself in the way she once immersed herself. “At some point it's very important to me that my daughter is able to experience life and run through the sprinklers and have slumber parties and trust and live and do all the things that any child should be able to do,” she says.
Girl Scouts? Lemonade stands? School visits? Hello, Mr. and Mrs. Carter are here for their parent-teacher conference. . . .
“Absolutely,” she says. “School visits and lemonade stands and all that stuff. It's very important for me.”
Beyoncé refers to the sacrifices she made when she was young, the thousands upon thousands of hours of spent practicing and performing and accruing success and goodwill. She believes she has earned some latitude, the ability to occasionally step away and let go. “I don't feel like I have to please anyone,” she says. “I feel free. I feel like I'm an adult. I'm grown. I can do what I want. I can say what I want. I can retire if I want. That's why I've worked hard.”
She's not retiring anytime soon, but you get the point. In the life of Beyoncé Knowles, there is a new freedom. There is happiness. And not far from where we sit, beyond this door that opens up onto this wildly desirable and famous life, there is a baby stroller. There is Blue, and a big, boundless future ahead.
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